Soo,this is my first journal entry. Its strange for me to be write my feelings down, as the thing is I have someone that I can talk to, someone who I can trust, but the things is people get scared of whats happening in there life, with general interest being on the the future. But with me my concerns are always for whats happening now, I tend to get scared of whats happening and want to change it, which normally leads to things going wrong when if id have left them they would have sailed along find. So poetry for me, instead of an escape from something or a way of running away form things, is something I enjoy however dark they tend to be. Hardship and loneliness seem to be the easiest things to write about however happy  I am. So I intend to add some of my poetry for people to read, which worries me in itself. But Christmas has made me relise how happy I am with my boyfriend and how I want to be able to make him happy, being with his family made me feel jealous of everything that my family never had or will have, they are all close and know that they can rely on each other.Coming form a strange family, I appricate everything that he does for me, which makes me want to be able to do everything to make him smile as much as I can.

This journal seems to be a bit of everything